This Journal is now FRIENDS ONLY. All posts below are inconsequential, all recent, important, doomsday like posts are regulated for a certain number of people only. I am paranoid that way and I am an inherently private person.

But if there is the bizarre possibility that you actually like me so much, just comment on this post and add me. If you are not a complete and utter stalker, then I will add you back. (I believe everyone who is active in the online community has a little stalker in all of them that's why I feel the need to add "complete" and "utter" ) Thank you :)
 

(Made by Alyza T. Isn't it awesome? I know Zoe and Badong too so for me, it adds that layer of depth) 

1. I'm currently watching Princess and the Frog. I finally gave in and bought the dvd. I'm too impatient to download the torrent and my dwindling hard drive space compelled me to anyway.

2. I finally had my macchiato fix. It made my afternoon sparkling and new.

3. I've been tumblr surfing. I honestly think Natalie Portman, Emma Watson, Kate Bosworth, and Rachel McAdams are so pretty. They're always so put together and self assured. I especially like Natalie and Emma because they pursued college over their film career. I've been reading interviews and they sound so intelligent. Natalie Portman also amazed me with her credentials in Harvard. (She co-wrote two papers that were published in scientific journals). She often says in interviews that she despises the female roles in Hollywood. There was a time she wanted to venture into comedy but was often stuck with film roles that involved working in the fashion industry and falling in love and getting married. (This is part of the reason she did that comedy stint in SNL as a gangster rapper-- it was different). It sounds so familiar, like a research paper I did once in junior year. Haha.

3. I finished Book 2 of His Dark Materials.

4. My coffee is finished. I regret not getting a bigger size.

5. I found this japanese place near my house. Their cook used to work in Kimpura. He set up his own restaurant as a hobby and my goodness, the prices are dirt cheap. Don't expect Sugi or anything but honestly, for me it's better than Teriyaki Boy. And the most expensive thing in the menu is around 150-200 pesos. (Hi South Girls! Let's go! I'm inviting you North people too if you're up to it!) 

6. I'm learning how to work the iphone. It's driving me nuts.

7. I regret not going to JTA

(My workspace. This is my little shelf of books I haven't read except for Kundera. I just like him there because he just looks so pretty)

1. I've always thought I was a bit of an oddball growing up. I always preferred reading and art to playing outside or socializing with the other children. It somehow alienated me to the world, limiting and sheltering me from a lot of things. Until now I think people my age have a great deal more experience, I think this is the reason why I get intimidated by people older than me so easily. Perhaps I still think of myself as a child, someone who can't really speak in the present of adults despite being one myself. I always wondered what it would have been like, if I was the confident social butterfly. Someone who is comfortable wearing a pretty dress every night and teetering on her heels at 2:00 am in the morning. In my head, these people belong to the grown up variety. It's the air of self possession they exude that I never seem to master. Which is why I always react it slight amazement if people call me the more mature one, the more confident one, the grown up one. When all I see really, is that child-girl who wears bright dainty dresses, comfortable in conversations about literature and television it's a wonder why anyone thought of me any different.

2. It's nice to be called beautiful. It's the kind of compliment which gives me the same pleasure as eating a slice of chocolate cake. But what makes my cheeks flush is being called elegant. There's a timeless quality about it. I'd rather be educated, interesting, articulate (something I'm working on!), and tasteful than just beautiful. It makes me think of worldly and gracious women-- great women who have their self respect intact.

3. Our maid is leaving us today because she's running away with her boyfriend. They both don't have jobs. My mom sneered in disgust when she asked her permission to leave. She told me she would have respected her more if she left us to better herself, such as getting an education, a job overseas, working for a higher salary. I agreed with her. I thankful to be surrounded by women who instilled in me great values. We don't notice it because everyone around us is like us. It's common joke to be called feminist bitches. However when I step out of  our little circle, there are a lot of women who don't really care about themselves. It's sad to witness.

 

(Me in my workspace and the obligatory starbucks.I'm looking at my picture now and I think I'm friendly looking. Someone told me I'm not.)

 

4.Sat in my illustration class again today. Alyza drew Badong Bernal and Zoe Dulay in her moleskin. I love how she did it. They're both awesome and beautiful people already to begin with but I love the whimsical quality of her sketch. So lyza I will scan that picture and put it on my wall, I really really love it. :)  It makes me sad though that i stopped drawing. I'm planning to start again soon because i miss the pure uncomplicated joy of doing it. 

5. I'm getting my mom's iphone. I wasn't really asking for it and I don't itch for it. It just has a camera and I'm excited to finally have something to take pictures with.

 

 

(We had Christmas dinner with my Mom's client. She had a pomeranian family.
That's Luke and Leia in the picture-- yes they were named after Star Wars.
Can you tell I was very, very happy by my expression?)


 

  

(This is me with Chewey, the patriarch. It's like having four twixes (Jo's sister's dog) in one room.)

 

It's no secret that I adore cold weather. This is why today is lovely. To cap it all off, my dad and I are going out later for some coffee. :) Caramel Machiatto here I come!